Saw some pictures and mind went wild again
I'm too cautious and rational in relationships nowadays
It's a big change in me due to the brutal past
I'm over protective towards my heart as it is too fragile to be hurt once again
"If you get married in the future, (he said IF because he knew I was against it), don't choose a gambler or alcoholic as your husband. Occasional smoker is okay."
"Haha, I myself don't smoke dy very ok liao la..." *mumbled to herself*
*he didn't really hear it* "And never ever get married with a playboy!!"
"I will let him die if he is one... Haha~~ And I will surely divorce if I got the wrong person, I wouldn't just bear and suffer forever."
*paused for a moment*
"Look... If I don't get married, I don't have to worry that much... So I'm not going to look for trouble. I'll just avoid taking risks."
Thanks God I have an open-minded father
He has no problems with me not getting married
He even said that he'd rather I stayed single if my future marriage life isn't blissful
All he ever wanted is his children- my sis, bro and I to lead a happy and meaningful life
"You know... Nowadays... When guys want to be more than friends with me... I will start suspecting every word they say and eventually back off or ask them to f off... I have no trust in guys and even love itself anymore..."
"It's not a total bad thing... It's good to be cautious... Maybe after four to five years, you will recover from all the pain and accept things once again..."
On some aspects, I know myself brutally well
I'm the 100% typical hard-to-let-go type
I've decided to totally cut off anything to do with relationships because I've had enough heartbreaks
I don't wanna risk my heart from being shattered into pieces again
Some people might say, "Hey your Mr. Right will surely come along... Don't stop trying until you find him."
No thanks. How many heartbreaks do I have to go through to get to the right one?
I'd rather lose that f*cking chance
I do not trust.
I do not love.
Therefore I do not get hurt.
This is my choice.